Surrendering

When the days turn to weeks
and seasons to years,
the battle scars and wounds
have been counted and felt.
Beyond all reason
or any hope just to grasp,
I struggle to keep going
I’m not as strong as you’d
Think.

When my desire to connect
outweighs my ability to reach out
I find that I err to the side of
Caution
and waive my solitude on
my swelling pale flag.
When my motions turn away
my doubts build a wall.
It turns out I cover up better than most.

Why always searching for something to
Hold?
When people surround me I still feel so
Cold.

The more that I think, the less I know
I’m wondering when I won’t feel so
Alone.

I surrender my face
and surrender my time,
I want to forgive
and I want to move on.
I surrender my cover
and surrender my life,
I’m in the need of
someone to confide.

I don’t want to harbor my heart for all
Time,
I don’t want to always get lost in my
Mind.

Sometimes I carry more weight than I own.

So, I surrender this burden
and surrender my pain.
I surrender my anger
and surrender my pride.
I know that these debts
are not yours,
they are mine.
I need to dig deeper
for the peace locked
Inside.




*special tnx to Candlebox influence